This show makes me feel great about myself in that motivational way that is they can do it, I can do it. But it also makes me feel oh so very bad about myself.
I've been working so hard on improving my self image. SO HARD. And then I see these contestants. Some of which have very similar weights as I currently do and I think "Oh my God. Is that how I look?" Once again, "Are people just being nice to me by not telling me what a blob I look?" Here are the female contestants that are close-ish in weight to me.
Only 13 pounds heavier than me.
Only 10 pounds heavier than me.
Only 20 pounds heavier than me.
Only 18 pounds heavier than me.I just don't get it. What is wrong in my head? My body before I started losing weight was likely just as bad as the contestants but now I look at the group photo and think "I am WAY fitter and thinner than those guys." But the damn numbers. The numbers say that's not quite true.
