But you know what? I can't really see it. It's 20 pounds! That's like 3 small newborn babies. You would think that it would be evident I had lost that much. It's not. I still feel fat as ever. SO.. I think it really must be all in my head this time. That whole "the first step is admitting you have a problem" saying is right. I'm there. I know that my perception of myself is skewed. I'm working on it but I really don't have a clue what I am doing. No clue other than that I've begun to tell myself to shut up if that little voice in my ear gets loud and negative.
